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Wow. Supernatural killed me once again. I can't even describe how I feel. That hurt. Much. Ouch.
I am totally shocked here. I really, really wanna see the next ep now (maybe). Because that ending - not even close to being acceptable.
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[14 Sep 2005|03:28pm] |
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It isn't as cold anymore as it was the last few days. Maybe I can convince myself that summer isn't over yet. But it's a hard task. Thinking about fall makes me somewhat depressed. I really don't have a clue why.
Every evening I go out with my dog for a walk and now I realize how it gets darker and darker every time. Just a little bit, but yet enough to make it noticeable. And while I'm walking and realizing how it's becoming fall, all sort of memories come to me and I get really, really sad. One may think remembering is a good thing, but it makes one aware of what one can't have anymore. I miss my mom. Really do. Can't believe that almost 1 1/2 year passed since she died. It still feels so unreal at times.
Had lunch with my grandparents today. They're so excited and anxious about me moving to Mainz at the same time. Oh my. Already got me a new alarm clock (because I complained about the tick, tick, tick from my old one annoying the shit out of me) and two fleece blankets. Sweet. It wasn't like I expected them to buy me anything. But they remembered that I complained and that I start to freeze easily. Awww.
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[10 Sep 2005|11:38am] |
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I'm getting pretty used to not writing in here. Perhaps because I don't feel too good these days. Who knows?
Haven't heard anything from Mainz university, yet. I don't know if I am just really annoyed or about to get pissed of. It's not the first time they've to go through shoals of applications, so they should by know have found a way to that in time.
I mean I rented a two-room apartment (or whatever u want to call it) together with a friend of mine already, so I don't have to worry bout a place to live, but there's still the possibility that they won't take me (it's small but it's there) and then...omg I really don't want to think about it.
Not that I want to think about moving and starting to study and all this anyway. A month ago I was so excited and I just couldn't wait, but now I'm scared and I really don't want to go, even though part of me does. It's complicated ;) But I was relieved to hear that my soon-to-be flat mate (whatever) feels the same way. I was almost sure that was some kind of typical anna-reaction. ;) obviously it's not. Hah. I'm glad.
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[20 Aug 2005|07:58pm] |
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I don't really feel like writing in here at the moment. Don't know. Maybe because I don't feel too happy. Nothing to worry about so.
I started writing a QAF Brustin Fic, and that's quite depressing stuff, too. Don't expect to read it so. I don't have a beta, so you really don't want to read it. ;)
I watch 509 again and again, because I find 509-Justin really amusing. He can be such a bitch. His behaviour towards Jennifer is ridiculous and makes me laugh every time, because I love bitchy-Justin, even though I don't really think he's the right to act like that. But it's just too funny. "I'm always up for a laugh" he says and he makes a face that I just have to start giggling and can't stop. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) nebulein thinks I'm really wired. Watched CatCF way too often it seems. ;)
Perhaps I should just rewatch the Justin~Jennifer scences....
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[15 Aug 2005|05:28pm] |
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First of all, what the fuck is my sister thinking not coming home all weekend even though my father said she had to, and being away most of today, too, finding it completely normal *gnah*. At least she finally went out for a walk with a dog, but not until her boy-friend arrived and that was quite late for our cute little dog.
This day certainly sucks. I had to get up early (10 am - and yes, that is early ;)), because my father wanted me to wait for two different postmen. So I was sitting there all day, tired and in need of a shower and only one came. I got really annoyed. nebulein told me to shower and fuck the postman ;) so I did. ;)
At about half past 4 my grandmother arrived to take me out for grocery shopping. It wasn't that much fun, but at least I don't have to stay hungry the whole week. That's certainly worth it.
Yeah now I don't really know what to do with myself. Don't really want to do the stuff I have to do (ironing, and cleaning up our bathroom)...
Whatever.
I got tagged by novafairy:
List three random facts about yourself that your friends might not know. And
then tag five other friends to do it.
( 3 things you don't really need to know )
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[04 Aug 2005|11:25am] |
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Okay, I spent half the night awake, watching some strange basketball movie. I had to watch it because I recognized Justin's mom. I'm not really into basketball and even Jennifer (I know that's not her real name, it's Sherry Miller) couldn't keep me awake at last, so I slept and almost overslept, but I woke up just in time to watch O.C. California. Hah. I don't know, my sister's always telling me that I have no humor at all, because I tend not to laugh too much while watching some comedies. Fact is, my humor is special. I don't laugh when I don't think it's funny. When my sister's watching tv you can hear through the whole house laughing, I'm not like this. But O.C. California makes me laugh. I just love Seth. How can one single person talk so much nonsense in such a short time.
One of the best things about watching Mr. & Mrs. Smith with Cora was both of us start giggling when we saw Adam Brody (or shall I say Seth, because Hector really reminded me of him). We didn't know that we both like O.C., but that was a funny way to find out.
Today I should really start to tidy up my room. I think it's cosy the way it is, but I don't want Hoshi or NEbU to die of a heart attack, so maybe I should really put some effort in cleaning it. *laughs*
Knowing me and my dear Hoshi I'll have to do it all over again when he leaves. ;)
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[04 Aug 2005|12:44am] |
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OMG. I'm so in love with my boys, it just unbelievable. I watched "A Knight's Tale" again, and I so love this movie, this boy, this accent. *awwws.a.little* So I just had to join two Heath-Communities.
Watched "The Merchant of Venice" today. The one with Jeremy Irons and Joseph Fiennes. Hah, loved them.
I fear I'm truly obsessed with good looking boys, and girls, of course. :)
And I really did start to watch O.C California. And I missed it today, because I went to the movies. Now I have to get up tomorrow morning to watch the repetition.
This weekend Hoshi is going to visit me. He's an old friend of mine, but we haven't met in what seems like ages, so now I'm really nervous, but also really, really excited. When we lost touch I thought we might never hear from each other again. ICQ made it possible and now we're really meeting up again. I have some difficulties believing it. But it's true. Angel's meeting Hoshi once again. And I so can't wait. I mean we both went through so much shit, it's going to be interesting to find out how much we changed. He was one of my first internet friends. Hah. When I first read some of his posts I thought he was some of these very coold and bad boys, and then I met him and he was just so cute. And not in a very manly way. And I hope he never reads this or I get killed. But that's nothing new ;) we were known for always annoying each other and making fun of each other. We were sometimes really mean, so some people thought we couldn't stand each other, but in reality we really like each other, alway have.
He's gay, so we could spend a week just cuddling and hugging and we could laugh without drinking ;) That was something that just came back to my mind. The first night we slept together in one bed, we didn't really sleep but talk all night and that was something that came out of it *laughs.silently* So yeah, I hope we're going to have fun together. :)
And then, I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait - have I alread mentioned that I can't wait? - NEbU is going to spend some time with me. I can't wait *laughs* I am so excited! It's been sooo long. Not as long as with Hoshi, but it certainly seems to be.
But yeah, only 4 more days to go, I can do that. :)
And now I'm finally going to bed, so I don't miss O.C. California tomorrowthis morning.
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[20 Jul 2005|10:27am] |
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nebulein wants to spend some time with me. "Only" 19 more days to go. Yay. It seems like a long wait, but we haven't seen each other for more than 1 1/2 year now, so it probably isn't that long. ;)
It feels amazing being able to count the days instead only hoping that one day we'll meet again.
And I so love the Sunshine smile. Awww.
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[19 Jul 2005|09:39am] |
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No swimming for me today. How comes? I had a horrible night + a horrible nightmare at around 7 in the morning. I woke up from myself screaming. Bad way to start a day. And I was sooo tired. You might know how much its sucks to be tired as hell, but not being able to go back to sleep directly after waking up, because the pictures from your dream are haunting you. Somehow I managed to get some more sleep and guess what? I overslept. I woke up the minute I should enter the bus. Perfect. Called Cora and now we're not going anywhere today. I'm not too sad.
I still feel rather sick. It might be the nightmare, it might be my stomach or the lack of sleep.
Perhaps I should call and cancel the colouring, because thinking about it makes everything worse. And I'm a little pissed 'cause they called me yesterday and said that they'd come by in the evening to use the internet and now guess who spent the evening waiting and who wasn't there? No shit.
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[18 Jul 2005|09:47pm] |
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Life sucks at the moment, but as there's nothing I could possibly do against it, I may as well accept it and wait for better times to come. They alway come, you just don't have a clue when.
It's way too hot again and I'm wondering how the hell I shall be able to sleep tonight. I spent most of last night awake, being really pissed of because of it. And I have to get up tomorrow 'cause I promised Cora to go swimming with her. Oh my. The last time I did that was years ago. *scared* Afterwards I have to go to a friend of mine to help him colour his old apartment. I so don't want to. I spent most of last week helping him colouring the new apartment, and to move his things from one place to the other...
I do realize that I have nothing interesting to say! =)
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[30 Jun 2005|08:39pm] |
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I really did start to work on my user info. It's not ready, yet. But I was so excited that I actually started with it, that I had to put it online to see how it looks. It's no brilliant work. No perfect icons or something. Just some small images of the guys I love. Orlando, Emily/Claire, Dominic, Gale/Brian, Randy/Justin, Peter/Emmet. Evangeline, Julia Stiles, Elijah, Billeh!, Viggo and Heath Ledger are still missing for example.
Oh my, I am such a fangirl sometimes. ;) When I was younger I thought that with turning 18 my star crushes would fade, but no...shit happens...they're still there and it's getting even worse. ;)
I realized that some of the most talented writers are teachers. I liked to giggle to myself imagining that one of my teachers could have some sort of fangirl crush and to tell the truth it was hard to imagine, my teacher were all very old and very old fashioned...whatever... I like to imagine myself being a teacher (it's going to take some time though. As I wrote in my last entry, I didn't even start with university yet) and still getting nuts about my boys and girls.
Isn't it wonderful loving both girls and boys?
It's unbelievable. I so did start rambling in here. And how many days do I own that journal. LOL.
Now I'm off taking my dog out for a walk. And for the first time in what seems to be ages I'm not going to die from getting too hot. It cooled down a bit today.
Every time I'm listening to that song I'd love to kiss someone. It's been way too long.
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[30 Jun 2005|07:01pm] |
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I'd really like to go out dancing tonight. It's been so long since the last time I went clubbing. I mean I danced in some Irish Pubs or at some concerts, but never went out only to dance the whole night. I love getting lost in the music. I know that I'm not really good at dancing, but sometimes I just love to do it. And right now I want to really badly. I don't really know why. Sometimes I hear a certain song or something and then I feel the need to get out, enjoy myself and have some fun. Perhaps there are some more possibilities once I leave this village I live in at the moment behind, and move on. Being a student at a university shall be the best time of your life. Who knows? Perhaps it is. I'm going to find out, soon. Hopefully at least. I mean say have to accept me first. But everyone tries to tell me that I worry to much. I just can't help it.
But I really can't wait to start studying. Meeting some new people, learning lots and lots about history and english (I really do need to improve my english or I am going to embarrass myself), doing some new sports, living on my own, there's so much that's going to change. That's so exciting.
I'm thinking about a way to change my user info. Maybe I'll create something tonight. The night is still young. It's only 7:10pm out here. Lots and lots of time. Except I have to get up early tomorrow to see the doctor (I don't want to *whines*) and go to town to find a present for a friend of mine who celebrates her birthday tomorrow night and thought it'd be a good idea to invite me one day before the party takes place. Yay. And I have absolutely no clue what to get her. I'll probably end up with some flowers. Okay, probably not - I never did before - but who knows?
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[29 Jun 2005|12:49pm] |
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I joined some communities tonight and left them with my adamanta journal, so I have all English stuff here. Lots of Lost and QAF related stuff anyway.
I'm so pissed, not really - don't try to imagine little me with some smoke that comes out of my ears or something - but I hate the fact that Pro7, the German TV channel that shows Lost, thinks it's funny to do some sort of summer recess and starts in the middle of season 1 with the first ep again. I so loved monday evenings for being able to sit there and finally having found a tv show again that I watch on a regular basis. But no. They do want to spoil the fun and stop...can you imagine it? Poor Claire is still lost and they just start the whole thing from the beginning again. Hello? I don't want to see the 1st ep again - okay, maybe I do, because I'm a sucker for the characters and love to watch them all over again - but I really want to watch the new eps...*grumbles* and you know what? When they start to send the new eps I'm most likely living in Mainz already and I am not taking a TV with me. You know what that means.
Arghs. Yeah...I could just steal the english eps, but that's not the same. It's like watching QAF. It's on my computer, it doesn't feel the same as having to watch in on TV. Maybe I'm nuts.
Did I mention that I love Claire? And now she's lost and they don't want to show me how the story goes on and what happened to her. The bad girl that I am does already know that she is going to be alright, because I couldn't resist from having a look at some spoilers. But it's not the same as really watching it, is it?
Yeah...you see, I'm such a poor girl. Does anyone want to pity me? That'd be lovely.
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[28 Jun 2005|10:31pm] |
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Hey!
Here we are! After having some problems - I thought 2005 was my year of birth, when actually it's not ;) - I finally have an english LJ. I am so proud of me ;)
I don't really know what to do with it, but I think I'll use it to ramble about anything that comes into my mind. Whatever.
It's late in good old Germany and way too hot to think.
Textures are stolen from xtra-ordinary.net
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